standstill. standup

past few weeks is low low low.. things seems to be not going smoothly. with all the drive and motivation, things just came into a standstill at times.

standstill
jus me trying to soar, jus hard stretching my wings, alone.

one person doing all. one person making calls, doing the typing, communicating, doing the research, doing the planning, thinking the next step.

but effort doesn't means returns. its luck? fate? or wat?

some don't believe, some say its just for a moment, some say it won't happen, some say won't make it.

the first few steps is hard, some say. tt's very true.

with a paradigm shift, i should look further. maybe this don't work out for a purpose, maybe something better is arising and waiting for me.

strawberry wine on the hold first. enough of the waiting game and confirmation. I'm looking at other options already. so so so... see how see first. did out a whole new updated company's portfolio to satisfy curiousity. now they want more information and this and that. even the trade office wants to check me out. If they're unsincere in giving the distributorship and no way to handle their products. y waste time shooting into blank air, why waste time and effort with hopes. don't let something slow down just because someone who doesn't even own that company doesn't have the foresight and see this as a shopping trip. so when a someone starts keeping his strawberries to himself and don't wanna share. make one myself. =) lesson learnt.

smoke is on the way, its quite an hassel to be dealing with tobacco. from the tax to the license to the regulations and the cost. take a puff to relax. now the branding and launching. must be very very careful with everything, the figures, the rules. ithis is my first.

strategy strategy strategy. the divine ones up there, I standup and put my hands to pray. huat ar!